The musings of a Prodigal Prophet,
an Intrepid Visionary,
searching for his Mystical Muses,
on a Dream Quest for Eternity ...
Calm, cool, confident, collected and sensible, 36, single / Polygynous, straight, "Dominant" MAN aspiring "Unlimited!"
I am entirely LIFELONG committed to the women whom I already own, and yet I am definitely still available to consider new girls to join with Me and My girls. *
* ("available" meaning: ONLY for serious inquiries from real life people, of which I will always prefer local people foremost, and NO I will NOT EVER consider anything "online-only”, despite the situation I am currently in).
* profile ENTIRELY updated AND re-written: 03-26-2008*
Encompassing, of high loving heart, paroxysmal poetic touch, and artistically sensitive, seeks fun-loving worthy friend(s), whom of paradoxical passions, may value the many thrilling complexities and yet soothing simplicities found in life. I have recently relocated here to Kansas from Iowa (and before that, I was in upstate NY for 6 years, and before that, lived in Michigan all my life -- YES, I have done ALOT of moving around in the past 6-7 years!!). Currently, I have not found many similar-age acquaintances in my area yet.
I am primarily seeking: friends, FIRST! Where shared conversations, be they deep in spirit, or light with humor, might bond us together as lifetime companions within mutual joy! I re-iterate: FRIENDS FIRST!!, although wherever the road may take us, a profound and (key word) "INTIMATE" relationship is IDEALLY desired, and very possible.
I'm extremely intelligent, emotionally mature, definitely with dreams and ambitions, self-dependent, loving of heart and uplifting of soul. A few years ago, I was a full-time student at American Inter-Continental University ONLINE, so I am at least fractionally college educated, with most (90%) of the rest of my education being that I am entirely self-taught in everything else that I know. Yes I LOVE BOOKS, and I HATE the CIA/NSA-controlled mass mainstream media! KILL YOUR TELEVISION, you mind-numbed hypnotized sheep-lemmings! YES, I actually take it on my OWN INITIATIVE to stand out, as an independent free-thinker: to GET UP and go OUT of my way to study and actively work on what I want, when I want, and how I want. And I keep myself very informed and busily involved in socio-political activism, in regards to national and world affairs, simultaneously studying all religious and cultural implications of current events, as biblically and prophetically predicted, the shifts in the oft-malaised paradigm psy-op program of "groupthink" (which I am against, if you cannot tell - I am, to a very large extent, a Misanthrope, however "enlightened" I wish to strive to be).
During my time at AIU Online, I was studying Information Technology, and simultaneously working from home as a Technical Support Consultant in the same field, for an internet Information Technology consulting company. At this time, however, I am not engaged in any gainful employment, due to my disability and desiring to enable my life so that I will keep on the path to healing and renewing my own wellness.
I am also ALL about (these are the things that I STRONGLY believe in):
- I am a christian-believing patriot citizen, who was born within the United States of America,
- A STRONG believer in "9/11 Truth",
- An avid supporter of Republican Presidential Candidate Ron Paul (a libertarian-leaning U.S. Congressman from Texas, running on the GOP ticket),
- WHOLLY AND FULLY AGAINST ALL forms of occult, satanism, paganism (yes that also includes wicca / witchcraft / CHARLATAN / psychic crap - I CANNOT STAND FOR IT), and Freemasonry and ALL of it's off-shoots,
- And I am NOT AT ALL "a friend" of neo-cons, neo-liberals, fascists/corporatists, irresponsible people in positions of power, or New World Order "globalists".
IF ANY of the above criteria means or fits you, or who you are, then by all means, BLOCK ME RIGHT NOW. I will NOT likely have anything to do with you, and in fact, we will probably not ever get along. However if anyone wishes to talk or debate about these topics I would probably be willing to consider it.
- I ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY DO NOT believe in ANY form WHATSOEVER that is a so-called "female dominance". BAH. If and when it does seem to exist, to me it is only a sham, an UTTER FALLACY, an illusion. Basically, I see it is as being that mankind operating BACKWARDS; it is a strange perversion and twisting of the natural order. IN ALL ways of life (not just sexually or relationally), ALL Men should be Dominant and ALL women should be submissive, as this is how life was meant to be, even right now, and this is how it was originally DIVINELY ORDAINED by God in Genesis, chapter 3, from the beginning of man's time having first set foot here on Earth. This is also to say that I also DO NOT believe that any male should prostrate below themselves to become submissive to women who are undeserving of that. This is also perversion and a sickness. MEN have a DIVINE BIRTHRIGHT to Dominate the whole of the Earth, and that includes the women in their families and/or bosom. And when a man or a woman twists that around backwards and operates strangely to the original covenant, then I believe we are all on a slippery slope to hell. Also I do not believe that any man should be gay, whether they "Feel" that way or not. IT IS WRONG to operate entirely on your feelings; it is why we were born with a BRAIN, and a WILL, to REIGN OVER everything else inside and outside of us. As it is, it is usually WOMEN who most-often operate solely on the direction of their feelings, instead of the direction of their brains and/or logic. And for a man to desire the opposite side of the fence where women live inside, or for a woman to start to utterly absolve herself of all her feelings and personae that made her a woman in the first place, and to desire the trappings of masculinity, well those also are wrong to me. So to me, obviously there is some spiritual twisting by demonic forces going on in people's minds, and hearts, in those cases.
I only know of 1 exception which has never been strictly placed on a woman, and that is: she is not required to only love men sexually, but just that she ought never to lose her femininity. Yes, that's right, a femininity in women that was always intended to be flexible, that loves (or can love) both sexes, men and women, is both allowable, and also right and proper. However, ANY forsaking of mankind by women, any relegation to species extinction by a woman (or all of woman-kind) who might strive to isolate themselves, sexually, from Men, is also DEAD WRONG. I believe that people should be happy in whatever they choose to do, but to forsake men for the sheer sake of sexual pleasure only with women for the rest of your life is a bit of a pipe dream. And unrealistic, at best. Every woman should have, at least AND AT MOST, 1 (one) very special man in their lives, heart-most and sexually, and to forsake men entirely... well, let me just say that I cannot feel more sorry for all parties involved. It is wrong to forsake men forever in favor of only women forever. Same as it is for men to forsake women in favor of each other, forever.
THAT IS JUST PLAIN WRONG.
Any joining of homosexual men with each other, is always over-archingly anti-masculine, however, and is wrong and a "turning away" from the natural order. Sodomy against a male, by anyone, is just plain SATANIC.
In short, what I mean, is this: Dominant and submissive "roles", were meant to be strictly operated from within their respective assigned sexes, NOT this notion of self-imposed relative positions within a given relationship. Ever notice how in any gay/lesbian/trans-gendered relationship, it is always both people who DIRECTLY CHOOSE how they wish and want to be? It is not ... repeat: NOT ... something you are born with, it is ALWAYS a WILLFUL something that you CHOOSE to do. And, THE ONLY orientation and positional restrictions (that I have researched and found so far) is ONLY upon us Men, as we are to build and keep this world operating until The Lord returns. Women, being the weaker sex, do not have these limitations and are free to love or have relations with whomever they so choose, so long as they respect the only 1 ordinance of never forsaking their femininity, with which they were born to foremost please and serve primarily Men (and women also, to an also rather large extent).
I believe absolutely in Absolute Truth, and THERE IS NO OTHER WAY, NO OTHER WAY IS ACCEPTABLE. Basically, a sub, with me, goes either My way, or the highway. No exceptions whatsoever.
At the same time, though, I am also a backslidden protestant Christian of the Pentecostal / Evangelical Presbyterian variety, who, despite being backslidden, still believes in most all of the major tenets of that faith. My faith is my own business, as most people already say, today. However, any faith is dead and nothing without works, and the works of my faith duly require and include my own being a true friend and loving anyone, even if I do not like them. I do struggle hard with that. So, as for my paragraph above, there, yes I DO realize it is a bit of a paradox, but as long as people know WHERE I stand, I can (try to) talk civilly and quite possibly even lovingly, with anyone, even if I hate who they are or what they stand for. As a "Dom" I am also NOT "made of stone" as many women or submissives seem to think or believe that a Dom should be. I have a genuine heart and feelings, and a mind, and a personality, a soul, and a spirit. I also recognize those same things to some degree or another in everyone else.
This is what I have researched so far, and what I believe in, profoundly. I do not require anyone else to lockstep to these beliefs. My hope is that women of like mind and heart will realize within themselves a kindred spirit who agrees with what they too have believed all along, perhaps even all their life-long.
While I do currently have 2 physical disabilities (1 "permanent", the other "chronic" yet still gradually healing), and while I also admit to having had lifelong bouts with dire depression, my aspirations remain high, and my expectations stay purposefully well-managed. I believe everyone of us here on this Earth has a dream, a purpose, and a destiny to fulfill. And I am still trying to discover just what my "mission" here on Earth, is. So, as they say: My fight forges ON!! *smiles*
Have you also sought the reborn inspiration for your heart? Or the real-life personal expression of your dreams? So have I, and be fate as it may, I hope possibly we may search together ...
And now, for my darker side ... *Evil Grins*
My current familiarity with BDSM *used-to* remain only at the virtual-time level, as online with certain trusted women I know, for the past however-many years. Recently however (5 months ago), I got out of a real-time D/s live-in relationship with my 2nd submissive (real time), because it was simply NOT working out with us, and I had to eject myself from the train-wreck situation that was woefully corroding us both, inside and out. Now I even regret ever setting foot in that mess...
However, since that time, I HAVE gained real-life experience, and I say that up-front, for those that are (or are not?) considering my ad. Being FULLY PHYSICALLY ABLE, yet personably unsure around other considerable candidate women just yet ... let alone how "mentally conscious" of "all of what it is" that I want, I am wanting very much to start exploring AGAIN, NOW. Life is too short, I'm turning 36 this year, and I want [what I want] very badly, and I feel "life" all too swiftly ever more passing me by! :-( IT IS HIGH TIME for me to BEGIN LIVING AGAIN!!
I am eagerly desiring to AGAIN enthusiastically venture forward for some more full-time / real-life experience, and ultimately and IMMEDIATELY, I endeavor to begin living my chosen lifestyle (meaning: with someone, in person, in REAL LIFE, again), fully, and 24/7/365(6).
I am looking for those available legal-age girls / women (who were BORN as FEMALES!!), who are willing to engage in very dour, and perhaps, even excruciatingly painful /yet/ exquisitely PLEASURABLE experiences. I have my own very hard limits, and I fully expect to be in communication with all I meet about theirs as well.
And although I consider (and describe) myself as a "Dominant" man, I very much dislike the term "Dom" (or, "Dominant" male), as I find it VERY limiting. Therefore in my own growing personal philosophy which I am still groping at learning about myself therein - that with which I wish to undertake this lifestyle - I consider myself something new that I term as a man who wishes to be seen as thusly, "Unlimited". And here, I invite you to explore with me to seek those same otherwise-unlimited practices, ideals, lifestyle choices, and recreational joys, as I do.
As for what all turns me just RIGHT ON!! in the most fascinating ways, includes these things:
FOREMOST: watching, engaging-in, and mostly: playing-with ... LOVING bi-sexual women. As they all-together ... make love, and do-so softly, and sensually, in the scene.
This may seem all too common to a lot of lifestylers, let alone any readers of ANY ads on this site, and indeed I am sure this is beyond normal to many of you out there, even merely accepted as "second nature", and perhaps even a lot of you are already rolling your eyes at the mere mention of such a simple facet of the "lifestyle" ... But I AM VERY easy to please! :-) I sincerely desire most of all (amongst many other things): this very loving and intimate, slow-style ... of long-lasting play. Loving, and sensual, erotic and soothingly mentally-arousing. Basically I could (and actually would) enjoy something like that all day long, if the situation presented itself.
I also find it a VERY intense turn-on to be just (simply) manipulative, entirely controlling, over-archingly guiding, smoothly moving a scene along under My own command.
As for harsher moods, I am not normally a strict-punisher. But I am STRICT in principle, and despite this, I can still yet easily shift my passions from 1 extreme to the other, thus to engage in more extreme methods of play and/or pain, *IF* needed, and *IF* called-for.
MY SPECIALTIES include:
- Ownership
- Mental Bondage
- Psychological Domination
- Remote Control
- Retro-fitting and re-working your body, mind, and soul into who and what that *I* ALONE want you to be.
Any subs or slaves of mine will indeed probably start to experience any/all of this right away.
I LOVE seeing women decked with tight-fitting dark decor, as if it were a second-skin, liquid-sculpted dark-blue latex and black leather, elegant gothic white lace and deep plush rich shiny velvet. Thigh-high fishnets and HIGH strappy 7-inch SHARP SURGICAL STEEL stiletto heels, women with LONG flowing hair (I DO have a fetish for women with VERY, VERY long hair) ... silky long hair hanging straight down to or barely above their ass! Sluts hotly staring at me with INTENSE dark eyes, standing in "Fuck-me boots", still bold and strong in their slavery, DARING me to take them! Naked servant girls, prone to sitting on their legs, bowed before me, hair falling before their face, wet and whining for love. Mmmmm, Gorean Kajiira white-silks, belled anklets and slave jewelry! Nipple rings, labret link-chain piercing locks, and tribal slave-tattoo body art bedecked around her thighs and elsewhere across the rest of her Zebra-STRIPED body. Groans of begging hunger emanating from deep inside her heart, escaping the throat like a slow earthquake rumble from deep down inside of her decrepit body! The sweet sexy whisper of needs urgently craved, and that incomparable all-day-long musical cooing of a fully stretched-wide yet sweetly pleasured girl!! Hot screams and suffering cries of a burning girl, tortured overmuch, and swiftly racing over the sharp edge of a bright lava-flowing orgasm!! Mmmmm, I can never hear those melodious sounds enough!
I am a bit of a fan, and have a bit of adoration, for a particular slavegirl -- whom I once viewed in a pictorial feature, on a BDSM website called PainToy-com -- named "Syren". She had these incredibly sharp slit eyes, but... VERY BRIGHT AND DEEP BLUE flowing long hair, dark body-wide slave tattoos, and some body manipulation / piercings. From what I remember, being so long ago, it was not a complex scene - very simple - but her beauty evoked something within me, and I wish I knew her! And with her blue hair (ANY shade of blue, really) being my favorite color, I can tell you, I have (since then) had to start holding her up, as a model / criteria of the standards which I wish to aim for, in a slavegirl (of my own) that I hope to someday come across. :-)
Currently I am still in possession of my #1/first bi submissive girl from Australia, whom I took ownership of in late January / early February 2007. Since taking her, a lot of events in my life have changed and I NO LONGER consider online situations or relationships, outside of her (she is working to get herself here to be a true slave for me, in person). she is ALSO somewhat new to the lifestyle and still learning about it. she is still living abroad (overseas) at this time - due to impractical relationship hardships and logistical constraints, I am yet unable to be with her at this time :-.. However, she IS to be MY full slave-girl in the future, and for now, she does NOT have a profile on here.
We both aspire to, or lean towards GORean ideals, however, and it is a big source of inspiration for us!
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"What are you?"
"I am a slave girl."
"What is a slave girl?"
"A girl who is owned."
"Why do you wear a brand?"
"To show that I am owned."
"Why do you wear a collar?"
"That men may know Who owns me."
"What does a slave girl want more than anything?"
"To please men."
"What are you?"
"I am a slave girl."
"What do you want more than anything?"
"To please men."
Page 197 - Assassin of Gor
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"I knew then that He was dominant over me. This had nothing to do with the fact that I lay stripped before Him, wrists and ankles lashed, His prisoner. It had to do with the fact that He was totally masculine, and in the presence of such a stimulus, my body would permit me to be only totally feminine."
Page 264 - Captive of Gor
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"... the slave girl is not simply someone with whom the Man lives; she is very special to Him; she is a treasured possession; He owns her; He wants to know her; profoundly and deeply; the background, history, the mind, the intelligence, the appetites, the nature and disposition of His lovely article of property; this knowledge, of course, puts her more at His mercy; by making it possible to manipulate her feelings, exploit weaknesses, drop asides... she is in the helpless condition of slavery, it gives Him more power over her."
Page 42 - Tribesmen of Gor
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"The aroused sexuality of the slave girl is surely the strongest of the chains with which she is bound ...
"And you want more of them, don't you?” He asked. "Yes, Master," I said, my eyes suddenly filling with tears. How helpless I was before such men. "And desperately so?" He said. "Yes, Master!" I wept. "You perhaps understand now," he said, "that there is more to slavery than collars and chains."
Page 251 - Dancer of Gor
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"Sexuality is a glory in a slave girl which sets her apart from free women … The sexuality of the aroused slave girl is incomprehensible to the free woman. It is nothing she will ever understand. It is a color she can not see, a sound she can not hear ..."
Page 333 - Tribesmen of Gor
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"Women, I suspected, even proud, beautiful, intelligent women like Elizabeth Cardwell, secretly wish their Men to be strong, and upon occasion to prove it to them, commanding them as mere females, giving them no choice but to do precisely as he wishes."
Page 177 - Assassin of Gor
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"No woman, it is said, knows truly what she is … until she has worn the collar."
Page 155 - Raiders of Gor
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"Freedom permits a woman to live without a man. Slavery makes a woman need a man’s touch ... Slavery, of course, is the surest path by means of which a woman can discover her femininity. The paradox of the collar is the freedom which a woman experiences in at last finding herself, and becoming herself."
Page 160 - Magicians of Gor
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"I wanted to be many women to Him, and yet the same, always Elinor. A Man is a strange beast I think, for He both desires one woman and many women, and perhaps most He desires one woman who will be many women, others, delicious others, and yet always, too, herself."
Page 352 - Captive of Gor
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"It is said," said Samos, "that only weaklings, and fools, and men who deserve to be slave girls, fall slave to women."
Page 13 - Hunters of Gor
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"A slave girl is not permitted to conceal anything from her Master. She is His. She must be completely open to Him, in all ways, and at all times."
Page 84 - Hunters of Gor
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"The Goreans claim that in each woman there is a free companion, proud and beautiful, worthy and noble, and in each, too, a slave girl. The companion seeks for her companion; the slave girl for her Master. It is further said, that on the couch, the Gorean girl, whether slave or free, who has had the experience, who has tried all loves, begs for a Master.
She wishes to belong completely to a Man, withholding nothing, permitted to withhold nothing. And, of course, of all women, only a slave girl can truly belong to a Man, only a slave girl can be truly His, in all ways, utterly, totally, completely, His, selflessly, at His mercy, His ecstatic slave, helpless and joyous in the total submission which she is given no choice but to yield."
Page 102 - Hunters of Gor
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"I looked down upon her. "You are a wanton slave," I said. She looked up at me laughing, "A girl in a collar is not permitted inhibitions," she said. It was true, slave girls must reveal their sexual nature, totally. Do they not do so, they are beaten."
Page 278 - Marauders of Gor
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"On Gor, the female slave, desiring her Master, yet sometimes fearing to speak to Him, frightened that she may be struck, has recourse upon occasion to certain devices, the meaning of which is generally established and culturally well understood. I shall mention two such devices. There is, first, the bondage knot.
The bondage knot is a simple looped knot tied into the girl’s hair and worn at the side of her right cheek or before her right shoulder. The girl approaches the Master naked and kneels, the bondage knot soft, curled, fallen at the side of her right cheek or before her right shoulder.
Another device, common in Port Kar, is for the girl to kneel before the Master and put her head down and lift her arms, offering Him fruit, usually a larma, or a yellow Gorean peach, ripe and fresh. These devices, incidentally, may be used even by a slave girl who hates her Master but whose body, trained to love, cannot endure the absence of the masculine caress."
Page 27 - Tribesmen of Gor
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"Most female slaves," said Hassan, "walk very proudly. They are proud of their slavery, and their mastery by Men. They have learned their womanhood. It has been taught to them. In their way, though imbonded, totally, I suppose they are the truest and freest of women. They are closest, perhaps, to the essentials of the female, those of subservience to the masculine will, obedience, service and pleasure. In being most themselves, utter slave, they are most free. Given the proper Master they are quite content. In the proper collar a woman is serene, and joyful."
Page 332 - 333 - Tribesmen of Gor
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"There is a difference" laughed Hassan, "between the pride of a free woman and the pride of the slave girl. The pride of a free woman is the pride of a woman who feels herself to be the equal of a Man. The pride of the slave girl is the pride of the girl who knows that no other woman is the equal of herself."
Page 332 - 333 - Tribesmen of Gor
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"How beautiful I must look to Him, I thought. And I had sensed His incredible maleness, the animal maleness of Him, so different from the thwarted, crippled sexuality so commended and tragically endemic among the males of Earth. For the first time in my life I felt I understood what might be the meaning of the expression "Male," and as I lay before Him, too, dimly, it frightening me, what might be the meaning of the expression "female." How beautiful, I thought, I must look to Him, lying bound, totally vulnerable, helpless at His feet. How such a sight must stir the splendor of his Manhood, to see the female, His, caught, helpless at His feet, His to do with in lust and pleasure, and joy, as He pleased, helpless to escape Him, free for Him to work His will upon her!"
Page 27 - Slave Girl of Gor
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"A girl, incidentally, in the position of the Gorean pleasure slave, but who is not being kept in the position as a discipline, in which case she remains rigid, is allowed much subtle latitude, which she exploits, without breaking the position. Sometimes, as she becomes animated, she rises a bit from her heels, sometimes her head moves, her eyes are alive and vital, she speaks and laughs, and, radiantly, every inch, every bit, of her alive, converses lyrically and delightedly. Any girl knows that an interesting body is a moving body. Even within the apparent restraint of the position of the pleasure slave a girl’s body can be a subtle, provocative melody of motion. The interplay between the restraint of the position and her animation gives the position incredible power and beauty. Yes, power."
Page 36 - Slave Girl of Gor
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"Surely it is better to have a true Man on any terms than to have half a Man or no Man at all! Men are Masters; if the Man be strong, the woman must submit. Given the opportunity to relate to a true Man, few women will settle for less. Indeed, true women, in the belly of them, desire to submit to true Men. It is an ancient instinct bred into the bellies of beautiful, feminine women."
Page 154 - Slave Girl of Gor
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"Slave girls relish compliments. Indeed there is a Gorean saying to the effect that any woman who relishes a compliment is in her heart a slave girl. She wants to please. Most Gorean Men would not think twice about collaring a girl who responds, smiling, to compliments. A desire to please her Master. When she is complimented she knows she has pleased Him."
Page 17 - Beasts of Gor
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I once saw a naked slave girl on the
www.PainToy.com website named "Syren" who had incredible eyes, VERY long DEEP BLUE hair, body-wide slave tattoos, and some piercings. It was not a complex scene, very simple, but her beauty embodied something within me, and I wish I knew her. And with blue being my favorite color, I can tell you, I have now put her on my list of possible standards. :-)
UPDATE!! I found her!
The "slave" (sex toy) I was talking about as my "ideal" all this time (and NO, I do not know her personally, but I wish I did! She is just a hot bondage model that I happen to like!) So, here is a pic of the famous blue-haired SYREN!!Syren
*UPDATED* May 30th, 2007 - 2nd photo of Syren added !!
"TRUE BEAUTY ... is the effervescence of the eternal soul, smacking of God-given divinity yet conversely stung with the ancient flaw that became mankind. More or less, that which shines through the mundane contraption of what we are made; our soul being that which frames our speech, and bridles our actions - or not. Our mortal shell being the outward cage of a snare against which our very SELF regrettably must obey, lest we incur the inherent danger of wrath falling into death, being the natural entropy that IS our carnal and yet very human physical body: the like-it-or-leave-it 'mouse trap', wherein we clunk around this dingy planet with all our accentuating passions inspiring, but yet endure with such useless and silly whims. Beauty in the eye of the beholder simply becomes that which we appear to be from the outside looking in."
-- Rev. Ryan David Hall (aka "ProphetPX"),
March 2nd, 2007.
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